Choosing Myself – A figure sits in quiet reflection, surrounded by nature, symbolizing the journey of self-acceptance and healing.

Big Enough Mountain was a song I once heard as an anthem for my love for others—the people I carried, the ones I wanted to protect, the ones I loved beyond measure. But somewhere along the way, the meaning shifted. The words that once reminded me of them started to sound like they were meant for me, too.

The realization didn’t come easily. It took an unexpected snowstorm, a conversation that exposed a long history of gaslighting, and a song that hit differently at just the right moment. It was the moment I stopped waiting for love to be returned in the way I gave it—and started learning to give it to myself.

Choosing myself hasn’t been easy. It doesn’t mean I love others any less, and it doesn’t mean I don’t care. It means I’ve stopped treating myself as an afterthought. It means recognizing that love isn’t something I have to prove or earn. It’s something I am worthy of, simply because I exist.

This week’s blog explores what it means to stand in that love—to stop disappearing, to take up space, and to remind myself, time and time again, that I am enough.

And maybe, just maybe, that’s enough for today.

A broken mirror lying on the forest floor, reflecting tall trees in a foggy, eerie landscape, symbolizing the distortion of reality caused by gaslighting.

Gaslighting and self-trust are deeply intertwined, shaping how we perceive reality and our ability to believe in ourselves. The slow erosion of self-trust through gaslighting often happens in subtle, almost imperceptible ways—dismissive comments, rewritten memories, or even the silent cues of disapproval. Over time, these small moments compound, leading to a constant state of self-doubt. In Breaking Free: Gaslighting and Self-Trust, I explore my own journey of unlearning, rebuilding trust in myself, and reclaiming my sense of reality. Healing doesn’t happen overnight, but each moment of standing firm in our truth is a step toward freedom.

A stylized digital artwork of a human head in profile, outlined with flowing lines that resemble waves. At the center of the head is a glowing heart, radiating warmth and energy. The background transitions from soft blues to warm oranges, symbolizing introspection and emotional clarity.

Letting go and moving forward isn’t just a cliché—it’s a challenge. For years, I believed that assigning blame would bring clarity, that understanding exactly where things went wrong would help me regain control. But I’ve learned that blame only keeps me anchored to the past, reliving the same pain without ever truly healing. Real growth comes from shifting my focus inward, recognizing patterns, and accepting that not all answers are necessary. Letting go doesn’t mean forgetting—it means choosing to move forward, even without closure.